Today's appt with St. V's was very long, exhausting and overwhelming to say the least. We left our house at 1:20 and didn't get home until 7:20 (we ate at the hospital before heading home). I'm not even quite sure where to begin. I will just try and paint the big picture as there are too many details to spell everything out. We first met with the Neonatalogist. He was very nice and informative. Although, he had to give us mostly worst case scenarios so by the time he was done talking we didn't really know what to say or even how to make a decision. All I wanted to do is start bawling and run out of the building, BUT instead, the look I just sat there and gave him was like a deer in headlights. Our St. V's doc then joined us and started talking about how to move forward at this point. Do we admit you today and start monitoring and if so we have to make really big decisions before I'm even admitted. See, they need to know how we want to handle different scenarios before they even admit me....there has to be a PLAN. Then, an amnio came up in the conversation as we chose early on not to do one. Turns out, we really had no choice after today's discussion and proceeded with the amnio on Taylor only. The amnio is important as right now the doc can only blame his condition on the fact that he's got a poor placenta and his umbilical cord is defective. By doing the amnio we can (hopefully) rule out the only other reason he would be small and that would be if he had severe chromosonal deficiencies. The official results can be back in a week to two weeks, BUT we may not have that long to wait around, SO they sent some of the fluid right over to OHSU for a 2 day test. This test is not the full blown test, but it will give us some idea if there are severe problems or not. This all threw us off as doing the amino today was totally not in our plans. After discussions, it just came down to a no brainer that we had to do it. The 2 day results should be back by end of day Thursday. Tough decisions will have to be made if he has severe problems.
As of right now, it's looking like I will be admitted to the hospital on Friday morning. I almost was admitted today, but chose not to as extensive monitoring was done on Taylor today and everything seemed good. I will have another monitoring appt on Thursday and then head to hospital on Friday. To be honest I was a bit scared after all we heard today and needed some time to think through things. Once I'm admitted, tough decisions will have to be made in advance as we must go in with a PLAN. For example, there is a time line with the steroid shots for the babies lungs that we have to take into consideration and we have to think through the risks to Laynie if they have to take Taylor unexpectedly and of course all of the risks to consider with Taylor. Although the 24/7 monitoring is where I want to be, staying and being admitted today was just too scary. I'm choosing to trust God on this one and feel confident that Taylor will hang on for a few more days until I'm admitted.
My cervix is right on the border. Last Thursday it measured 2.8 cm and today it measured 2.5-2.6. Not a big change so doc was not too concerned, BUT it is something to watch especially if I have more contractions and they begin to get stronger.
This is all really tough stuff. Josh and I are taking it all in and trying to digest it all. We are relying on God to lead us in the right direction. We are taking this day by day, sometimes hour by hour, minute by minute. I will post again on Thursday when we get our results. My mom has a laptop that I will use while in the hospital. We know how much support we have out there and we are so blessed. We want to thank each and every one of you for your prayers and for sharing this journey with us. We feel very comforted knowing that so many people care about us and our little family. We know you will continue to pray and we know God is listening. Love, Angie, Josh, Laynie and Taylor
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