I've always known that I'm a surviver. All I've been through in my life has made me very strong, but I begin to wonder, when do you stop being the surviver? When have you been through enough to be able to say that you survived and now you can live a peaceful life? Does that ever come or is it once a surviver, always a surviver? Is it a curse to be so strong? Will I keep being challenged the rest of my life just to see how strong I really am? I guess I just don't understand how life can come so easy for some and others have to continue to fight, to be strong and to stand up against all odds. Don't get me wrong. I know that I'm very blessed with all that I have, but I didn't get where I'm at in my life without a lot of struggles. So why is that? Why do I have to continue to "go through so much" to prove my strength? I know God won't give me more than I can handle, but what does that really mean? With each trial in my life, I've come out a stronger person, so in turn next time around, I can handle even more.....right? Why can't being strong, just be enough? Why must I continue to be tested? I guess, only God can give me those answers.
I know many of you have left me messages or sent me an email that I haven't responded to. I promise, I will. I've been on the phone a lot over the weekend and at times needed a break from the phone and email. I truly appreciate the overwhelming support and PLEASE continue...I need it! I just need time to get back to you, so please know that I'm thinking of you too and I very much appreciate your prayers and support.
I better try to get some sleep. I have a big week ahead of me.
Love,
Ang
2 comments:
God is such an amazing God. I know that he makes life hard at times, but I am a true believer that God test the ones who truly believe in Him and the ones who he wants to see achieve their dreams. God sees you as one of those people Ang! You have been thru a lot I am sure but your right that only makes you stronger. We might never understand why God does the things He does, but we trust in Him anyways because He has the perfect plan for us in the future.
I still don't know why God took my mom, and even though it is still hard at times to be with out her. It has made me a stronger person and has helped me be the mom I am today and I am so thankful for that!
God wants you to be the perfect mom too! And if it is not now it will be in the future on His time. Just remeber that when two or more pray together God Listens for sure! Not saying that when you pray silently to yourself he doesn't listen to you, but he loves to see groups come together and talk to Him. God is hugging you and Josh and these little embryos are in His powerful hands they are in the most safe place! Keep talking to Him and he will answer you when the time is right! I too will continue to talk to Him as well! Love you girl!
Three more days! I'm praying and praying and praying for each and every step of the way for the little guys and/or girls...All my friends are praying too and they ask about you each day! Love you lots!!!
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